confuse..!

i feel so confuse..
i feel the tiredness..
i hate it lotz..!

i cant understand wat is sincere wat is fake wat is acting...
people around us always keep changing..
without pointing others..
i changed too..!

1 thing never change is..
i hate BETRAYER..!
the feeling was'nt nice..
the ppl always try to say sumthing indirect..
n i try to avoid..
i scared get hurt..
i get hurt..
i feel down..
but i stand strong to protect myself..
because it is my problem..
people can protect me..!
but i scared when i over depend on ppl..
the ppl wil hurt me or leave me anytime..!
i will get deeper hurt..!

i choose to remain silent..
because i feel i dun wan hurt ppl deep inside..
pour out is not a good way of solving problem..
because not everyone can take the pressure..
but please do not treat me lik a KID..!
i can sense the false n the true..

haiz...
since remain silent..
i get to know more evil thing..!
it make me have the stronger hate..!
please come infront of me n talk..!
if u dare enough..!
dun do so much of thing..
if not useful to me..!
i am who i am..!
i juz pity to the person u lie..!
congratz to u to hav so great person beside u..!
happy for u..!

u are not in my world anymore..!
i hate ppl who say different with it action..!
u r juz too stupid to do tht to me..
at last i get to understand many thing..
thx for giving me a good lesson..!

mie world wont interupt by other..
because mie is always strong enough to protect my world..!
n ofcourse my darling is with me when i have any problem..
love darling..~

sleepy~
gudnite..

...>_<...

i getting weaker n weaker..
i've been control by my feelings...
i have a scary dream last nite..
i wake suddenly..
then i read my msg..
it make my tear roll down non stop..
i cant sleep bac..
is so torture me..
i really get into it very deep..
i cant let it go..
anyhow i still face it wif my confident..
i tel out everything..
i really break down..
nobody can understand it..
i had been influence by those fb notes..
the ending was so sad..
sumtime i can read wif tears..
i scared myself wil b lik tht..
so for safe i choose to tell out..
this is type of letting sumone to understand us..
we can communicate..
anytime n anywhere..
we talk to each other our thing..
so together we solve the problem..
lotz changes i can c..
mayb i too ''yi lai'' him..
until i too care every action he done to me..
but this can make him noe i care him..
i too need him d..
he very ''yi lai'' me oso..
i feel happy for it..
bcoz i nvr have this strong feel b4..
although i fall in love b4..
he is the 1 can make me go crazy..
i can b myself infront of him..
sumtime i really wan stick wif him..
but sumtime thr is time we will get mad..
this is the time we tighten our relationship..
i really appreciate how my darling treat me..
i hope he also appreciate..
i really wish both of us can continue the rest of the journey..
(3

btw..
few days past..
wei li leave a msg..
but too bad..
i did'nt reply him..
coz i was bathing..
once i reply..
he go off9 d..
unbelievable he wil msg me..
so long din saw him appear here..
anyhow i wanna wish him can find a good 1..
all the best ya.. =)

<3

happy anniversary..!

( please dont read if u hate my sweet memories..~)

~10 sept 2010 & 11 sept 2010~

mie n darling go piramid for some celebration...
is a day earlier..
bcoz darling n i busy on 11 sept..
but we stil meet on 11 sept..
coz darling overnight at mie hse..
we go shop shop..
go eat eat..
go snap snap..
many thing darling cant eat...
coz of his wound..
pity him...
food tht he wanted to eat but he couldnt eat..
i am the one who eat for him..
muahahaha...
=P
can c cannot eat..
although is few hour..
but i appreciate wif it..
coz darling is tired...
need work sumore need accompany me..
hehe..
so bad de mie..~

~PICTURE TIME~

we go snap ''da tou tie''~

mie see the pic we took~

darling drink my honey dew~
he says'' i dun lik honey dew''
but still drink lotz..! =P

mie with my meal~

darling with his meal~

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the black background~

pinky background..
mie love the most~

purple background..~
mie love it too..~

the mini size wan~

after all i still wan to write sumting..
time fly very fast..~
without knowing it we already together for 1 year..
from unknown to friends..
from friend to closer friend..
from closer friend till now wat we r..~

darling is gud to mie..
coz everytime we argue..
he is the 1 who apologize..
he sacrisfied lotz for me..
he do many thing for me..
he deliver food for me when i am hungry..
he accompany me when ever i need him..
he comfort me..
he spend me where ever we go..
he noe i dun have much money..
he wil giv me money to spend..
we always there for each other..
i feel happy to be with him..
coz nobody try to spoilt our relationship..
even there is..
i think i stil hav confident tht he wont change heart easily..
he stil hav his temper..
but i accept it..
coz most of the time..
i am the one who throw temper to him..
i rely on him too much..
hoping to rely him continuous until both of us willing to put a full stop on it..
=)

siu wen bao bei love kai jun darling.. <3