weirdie...!

i feel so weird..
many thing happen juz lik a blink...

oni in a weeks...!
the ''prince'' chat wif me through fb..
he stil so gud..
we remain so gud..
but i oni can treat him lik a bro to me..
his concern oni can b a bro concern...
coz i am happy n dun wan thk so much..
i cnt live in dreamland..!
bcoz i got a lovely darling...
=)


the scary person appear again in fb...
he added me..
n i dunnoe how to avoid..
so i juz add him...
i really scared to let him noe everything go on bout me..
i dunnoe my decision is rite or wrong..
haiz..
but nvm...
at last i choose not to let him b my friend nemore..
bcoz he hurt me deeply...!

i got my darling to protect me...!!
my darling is an iron man..!!!

actually..
i am mad at my darling..
but he involve in accident today...
i am worry bout him...
i feel so guilty..
coz he involve in accident bcoz of me..!!!
haiz...
so sad...
he dun wan me worry...
so he did'nt inform me early..
but luckily i msg him..
he told me...!
i dump my frens..
so sorry FRIENDS (LEE YEE, KYALIN, API, FION)...!
since guilty...
i bring him go c doc..
late nite go kacau the bone doc...
then go home wipe blood..
reclean his wound..!
b his maid..
but i am happy for it..
coz I LOVE MY DARLING...!
ofcoz he love me too..!!!
he always b responsible on his daily thg..
he care bout my hunger..
he care everything bout me..!
when i saw his wound..
i really feel hurt too..!!!
bcoz of me..!
he injured badly...
luckily he got me.!
hahahahaha..
i help him & he help me...
whenever we face problem...
i hope we can continue need each other for the rest of our life..!

SIU WEN BAO BEI LOVE KAI JUN DARLING LOTZ..!

sleeping time..
gudnnite..!

everything and everything..

tik tok tik tok..!
time run fast..
stpm is nearer..
i feel ntg..
no nervous at all..
mayb i keep facing problem..
until i got no feeling d...

i am stress of other thing..
not STPM..!!

trial mark is out..
left 1 more subject..
i feel saisfied ba..
but another unknown mark subject..
i hav feeling it will fail..
so sad..
i almost to my aim..
but haiz..

i am tired to go skol..
i feel my energy is 10%..
duno wat i wan actually..
juz lik lifeless..

most of the time i am in moody mood..
wat really hurt mean..?
i should let my heart die for a period..
nobody understand me..
i cant get any care from any1..
really fed up..
i need travel..
i wan go relax..
go shop shop shop..!
if i got money i definitely wanna go taiwan or china..!
can go shop shop shop non stop..!
how nice..

my sis goin shanghai soon..
hehe..
so nice..

i need face exam lor..
haiz..
yawn yawn yawn*

i really worry sumthing..
but y i always worry myself..
nobody can understand my feeling..
not even 1..!

my whole body is ache..
juz lik an old lady oni..
haiz..

i really very very very TIRED..!
sumone cure me please..!

sumone say i look down ppl..
mayb i do...
but i tell thing straight forward..
i hate turning..
but HE dun understand..
is so hard to communicate..
i try so hard..
but the word really make me feel giving up everything..
y i muz do all thing to make myself so tired so lifeless..

i always ask myself a ques..
Y AM I SO KIND TO HELP PEOPLE BUT WHO HELP ME..?
Y END UP I GET IDIOTIC TREATS..
it really dun worth it..!
i dunnoe how to pur my feeling..
so i write out..
my blog is the best place for me to pour my feeling..
bcz i dun hav many reader..
(3

<3

confuse..!

i feel so confuse..
i feel the tiredness..
i hate it lotz..!

i cant understand wat is sincere wat is fake wat is acting...
people around us always keep changing..
without pointing others..
i changed too..!

1 thing never change is..
i hate BETRAYER..!
the feeling was'nt nice..
the ppl always try to say sumthing indirect..
n i try to avoid..
i scared get hurt..
i get hurt..
i feel down..
but i stand strong to protect myself..
because it is my problem..
people can protect me..!
but i scared when i over depend on ppl..
the ppl wil hurt me or leave me anytime..!
i will get deeper hurt..!

i choose to remain silent..
because i feel i dun wan hurt ppl deep inside..
pour out is not a good way of solving problem..
because not everyone can take the pressure..
but please do not treat me lik a KID..!
i can sense the false n the true..

haiz...
since remain silent..
i get to know more evil thing..!
it make me have the stronger hate..!
please come infront of me n talk..!
if u dare enough..!
dun do so much of thing..
if not useful to me..!
i am who i am..!
i juz pity to the person u lie..!
congratz to u to hav so great person beside u..!
happy for u..!

u are not in my world anymore..!
i hate ppl who say different with it action..!
u r juz too stupid to do tht to me..
at last i get to understand many thing..
thx for giving me a good lesson..!

mie world wont interupt by other..
because mie is always strong enough to protect my world..!
n ofcourse my darling is with me when i have any problem..
love darling..~

sleepy~
gudnite..

...>_<...

i getting weaker n weaker..
i've been control by my feelings...
i have a scary dream last nite..
i wake suddenly..
then i read my msg..
it make my tear roll down non stop..
i cant sleep bac..
is so torture me..
i really get into it very deep..
i cant let it go..
anyhow i still face it wif my confident..
i tel out everything..
i really break down..
nobody can understand it..
i had been influence by those fb notes..
the ending was so sad..
sumtime i can read wif tears..
i scared myself wil b lik tht..
so for safe i choose to tell out..
this is type of letting sumone to understand us..
we can communicate..
anytime n anywhere..
we talk to each other our thing..
so together we solve the problem..
lotz changes i can c..
mayb i too ''yi lai'' him..
until i too care every action he done to me..
but this can make him noe i care him..
i too need him d..
he very ''yi lai'' me oso..
i feel happy for it..
bcoz i nvr have this strong feel b4..
although i fall in love b4..
he is the 1 can make me go crazy..
i can b myself infront of him..
sumtime i really wan stick wif him..
but sumtime thr is time we will get mad..
this is the time we tighten our relationship..
i really appreciate how my darling treat me..
i hope he also appreciate..
i really wish both of us can continue the rest of the journey..
(3

btw..
few days past..
wei li leave a msg..
but too bad..
i did'nt reply him..
coz i was bathing..
once i reply..
he go off9 d..
unbelievable he wil msg me..
so long din saw him appear here..
anyhow i wanna wish him can find a good 1..
all the best ya.. =)

<3

happy anniversary..!

( please dont read if u hate my sweet memories..~)

~10 sept 2010 & 11 sept 2010~

mie n darling go piramid for some celebration...
is a day earlier..
bcoz darling n i busy on 11 sept..
but we stil meet on 11 sept..
coz darling overnight at mie hse..
we go shop shop..
go eat eat..
go snap snap..
many thing darling cant eat...
coz of his wound..
pity him...
food tht he wanted to eat but he couldnt eat..
i am the one who eat for him..
muahahaha...
=P
can c cannot eat..
although is few hour..
but i appreciate wif it..
coz darling is tired...
need work sumore need accompany me..
hehe..
so bad de mie..~

~PICTURE TIME~

we go snap ''da tou tie''~

mie see the pic we took~

darling drink my honey dew~
he says'' i dun lik honey dew''
but still drink lotz..! =P

mie with my meal~

darling with his meal~

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the black background~

pinky background..
mie love the most~

purple background..~
mie love it too..~

the mini size wan~

after all i still wan to write sumting..
time fly very fast..~
without knowing it we already together for 1 year..
from unknown to friends..
from friend to closer friend..
from closer friend till now wat we r..~

darling is gud to mie..
coz everytime we argue..
he is the 1 who apologize..
he sacrisfied lotz for me..
he do many thing for me..
he deliver food for me when i am hungry..
he accompany me when ever i need him..
he comfort me..
he spend me where ever we go..
he noe i dun have much money..
he wil giv me money to spend..
we always there for each other..
i feel happy to be with him..
coz nobody try to spoilt our relationship..
even there is..
i think i stil hav confident tht he wont change heart easily..
he stil hav his temper..
but i accept it..
coz most of the time..
i am the one who throw temper to him..
i rely on him too much..
hoping to rely him continuous until both of us willing to put a full stop on it..
=)

siu wen bao bei love kai jun darling.. <3